Near-Sighted-ness...

Sometimes silence and time to breathe is all you need.

At a point where my ego has run rampant,

I have tortured myself over the smallest things,

And I have been frustrated with everyone else not being what I wish they were,

I realize

That it's myself I was unhappy with.

Not everyone else.

Catching myself in the reflections of everything.

Just 'checking to see if I'm still there'

There are hundreds of people on these streets,

And I bump into a blind man because my hair wasn't perfect.

I stop.

I apologize for myself.

And I realize,

I don't want to apologize for myself anymore.

And so,

My focus shifts...

I'm reading, 'Improve Your Vision'

To correct my near-sighted-ness...

Move the focus from myself,

To others...

No more blind-men bumping,

I'll acknowledge the children staring in awe at the tall man,

And I'll smile at the cute guy smiling at me.

I already don't see what the fascination was

with a reflection of myself...

Real people are so much better.

Met with my meditation teacher this morning.

She's quickly becoming a good friend...

Beautiful woman, Jo is...

She's helping me realize my full potential,

And it's so calming to have such a warm,

loving

generous

and thankful woman helping me to

be unafraid of the future...

This massive transition is going to be so much easier with her.

Real people are so much better.

So...

With a focus more on myself

and less on others,

Topped with a fear of the future,

It doesn't surprise me I've got a weak view of distances.

But I don't need glasses.

I need to just shift my focus.